"I´m thinking about you more often than you think"

i think my heart stopped for a moment when he wrote this..
i think I´m falling in love.. and i´m not able to stop it..but hey..i cannot keep myself from feeling for all time.. i knew that before.

he´s so..so.. lovely. Charming.and sooooo evil.. that bad thoughts of him will be my end..i know it <3 he confuses me-in a good way. i do not know where my head is.. probably somewhere over the rainbow >.<

but..even now I´m going to let it happen, whatever "it" is.. I´m scared.. I´m so scared i want to push him away and run away like the fool i am..
i don´t want to lose this time.. i want him to love me.. ridicolous, isn´t it? *sigh*
i don´t want to lose my heart once more..

"Love starts with a smile
it grows with a kiss
it always ends up in tears
and someone to miss
I´ve been there before
oh I´ve been there before.."
[4lyn]

..but what should i do? i don´t want to run away.. i want to kiss him and want him to kiss me back...
so..yeah.. somebody shoot me please?