sometimes i think i should make a big step around some of the beautiful people.. like everyone I adore them, fall in love with them.. and then i get hurt.. that sucks..
this man is just like a trapdoor spider.. again and again I´m saying myself I should let go, if not I get my fingertips burned and my heart with it.. he´s just not the right one..
and again and again, everytime when i think i´m neutral, no feelings for him anymore.. I get infected once more.. am i crazy? stupid? insane? probably..
makes me thinking again about the quote "and maybe I just like the pain"
yeah..I´m sure a pain-lover.. poor me..



Someday I'll learn to love these scars
Still fresh from the red-hot blade of your words

How blind can you be? Don't you see?
How blind can you be? Don't you see?
How blind can you be? Don't you see?
That the gambler lost all he does not have

Did you ever hear what I told you?
Did you ever read what I wrote you?
Did you ever listen to what we played?
Did you ever let in what the world said?
Did we get this far just to feel your hate?
Did we play to become only pawns in the game?
How blind can you be? Don't you see?
You chose the long road, but we'll be waiting
Bye bye beautiful! Bye bye beautiful! Bye bye beautiful! Bye! Bye! Bye! Bye!