yesterday I read "Dreamfever" again.. I just love the way Mac and Jericho Barrons stalk around each other, longing and knowing it, but still trying to resist.. I could need a Barrons, too.
anyway. I found out that the authors husband created a soundtrack-cd.. I listened to the demos and I´m so possessed of "jericho Rain".. the sad thing is: you can´t get it in germany so it seems.. that´s so.. unfair

I´m feeling empty.. like somebody ripped a part out of me.. leaving a black hole.. and now it begins to swallow the rest of me..
What am I feeling? what is left? Sadness? don´t know if it´s the right word.. don´t know if I find any right words anymore..
I´m on a path, I don´t know.. where will i find myself in the end..
Craving.. the only word i have to describe my feelings..
*sigh*.. just feeling for the lines below..

part of Neil Dover´s "Jericho Rain":

tell me that you can save me and that i'll be okay
tell me that i'll survive this to fight another day
i can't resist you,
take what you want from me
with my defenses naked,
i'll give you everything
but i wont always be here,
down on my hands and knees
with my whole body screaming
please give me what i need
tonight i'm broken but tomorrow is another day
so just come fall down on me,i need that Jericho Rain